Before Steve left for work, we were all outside trying to clean out a horse trough. It's too heavy for me to lift and tip. We also have 2 koi and 17 "feeder" goldfish in it. We got the fish out, scrubbed it, and was refilling it when Andrew got bored. He was wet and went up to get on top of my car to play. Steve lets him climb up and he then walks around on top of the roof or sits on the windshield or hood. I do not approve. Even a little bit. They both know this.
Well, Andrew was messing around, slipped, and thunk! Bottom right into the windshiled. Totally shatterd. He's got a couple of very small cuts on his bottom and his pants and shirt are covered with small glass dust. Afterward, I just stood on the lawn crying because of the stress and expence. Our deductable is $500 or $1000, I can't remember. So, we'll end up having to pay for all, or most of it ourselves.
I can not take it anymore. I am full. I have more than enough crap to deal with. Done. Everyday there is more crap. Problems at Steve's work. He's almost out of vacation time and he will need it when the baby comes. His pay will be getting cut 10-15% in July. The hoarder house we live in, that I can't get on top of. Andrew's 4 year old mood swings. Being broke all the time. The baby on the way. Worring. Me and the passing out, pain, and contractions I've been having. I'm 6 months along and still have "morning" sickness. The dog that now barfs all over the house, 'cause he goes out and eats wild mushrooms and picks unripe fruit off the trees. Then he gets sick and barfs on the bed, on the couch, on the floor...
I feel like I'm drowning. I feel like I can't breath. I feel like things are never going to ge better. If I'm already this crazy, what's going to happen when the baby comes and if I have PPD like with Andrew? I was of my rocker crazy. I can't do that again. I can't do anything.
Thank God Andrew wasn't hurt. That's the most important thing. At least, that's what I'm holding on to right now.
Oh man. I tottally understand how overwhelming it can all be. I have no great words of advice, but, I know when I get to feeling like that I make a very concious effort - almost to the point of writing them down - to count my blessings. That helps me catch my breath and just let go of some of the stress and focus on whats really important to me. You have a good start, at least he wasnt hurt! Well, dont know if that helps, but, of course you can alwaysy come here too.
Steve filed a claim with the insurance company last night. I can't believe it. We still have to pay for the whole thing, and we now have an "accident" on our record! I'm pissed. He told them I hit a bird.
He said he didn't want to have to call around getting quotes. I said I could have done that. Heck, you can get a quote and an appt online. He said the insurance company will guantee the work if something goes wrong. Won't every glass place have a warrenty, so that doesn't matter.
He doesn't think. I know he's a man, so he's going to much more stupid then the rest of us, but seriously...If we have to pay for the cost of a new windshield, why would we also file a claim and have an accident on my record??? That doesn't compute with me at all.
oh gosh victoria ((hugs)) i have no words of advice, but we are all here for you. that is horrible about the insurance company...yeah, I would definitely cancel the claim (if you can).
I second canceling the claim. Whats the point in claiming it if you are ending up paying it all out of your own pocket? I am so glad Andrew is ok though, that is the most important. I really really hope things get better from here. I'll be thinking about you guys.
i'm sory, victoria. i would definitely try to cancel the claim and i'm betting you still can. ita with erin that when i feel down i start to think of all the things i am thankful for. even though my husband pisses me off a lot, i try to think of all the good qualities that he has and how i am lucky for that (yes, it is hard sometimes to think of them, lmao). i think of how lucky i am to have a healthy boy, who is the sweetest guy i have ever met. i try to think about it several times a day, all the things i am so lucky to have. it really does help me to start feeling better. sometimes it takes a few days of doing this before i feel a change. *hugs* to you.
Thanks everybody. Got the windshield replaced today. There's $300 gone. Steve has taken to calling me Debbie Downer. I think I miss my Lexapro. I think I need a break.
