In my heart of hearts I've always known that we weren't done but I really didn't feel like Doug would ever be on board and I sort of gave up. I've been *trying* unsuccessfully to feel done and I just don't. I don't know how I'm going to do it - I seriously feel like I fell apart after Owen but we will see.
On my birthday we were at the pumpkin patch and Doug said "I think we should have another one when you are able to stay home." I know this may not seem like much but he has been preaching about being done at two every since Owen was born. This is huge! He also said, "so, let's get crackin' at it!" This is (obviously) easier said than done but honestly if I could get down to part time work even I think we could do it.
So, in my mind I am wanting to TTC When Owen is in 4 yo preschool so that baby would be born around the time Owen is in Kindergarten. How sweet would that be? Just me and the baby at home for a few hours while the boys are in school.
Anyway, so now we are focusing really hard on how to make this work. We are paying off debt as fast as we can. Our car will be paid off in a couple of years. Though we will probably need a new one by then to replace my current one which is about 7 years old right now. Our debt should be paid off in about 3 years so that will help out immensely as well.
I know, it's a loooooong ways away but it's a pretty huge deal that he said that. He knows he can't say things like that and take it back. ;) I'm excited. My goal is to get as healthy as possible and in a great place mentally and physically so that I can have a smooth and easy delivery. :)
YAY!!!!!! That is so so great, and I am glad he has come around. I truly don't think I could be ok knowing Bill was against a third when I wanted one. It would be so hard to force yourself into feeling done.
YAY!!!! I'm so glad he is on board! I hope all the chips fall in the right place so you can get started ttc soon!!
And ftr, I never really thought you were done at 2.
Me neither, but Owen really did a number on me and even 2+ years later I feel like I am still trying to get back to "normal." I am really glad because I was resenting Doug because I felt like if Owen was our last that I didn't get to enjoy him being our last. I don't know if that makes sense. I just always assumed I'd do it one more time so I didn't have that closure.
It's weird, I just feel like we still have another baby coming to our family. :)
Oh I get the whole never feeling like you got to really enjoy the second when they are so close. I think in my mind I would someday like a third, about your timeframe, but we have to have our marriage solid, our debts lowered, and feel more solid overall financially and emotionally. I think it will happen (and even dh said we could discuss it in a couple years when IUD needs to go bye bye). So I know how you feel. AND, I am so excited for you!!
Now you have a great motivator to keep plugging away at your debts (I can't think of a better reason!) and something to smile about knowing you will get what your heart is hoping for.
Yay!
