Kenneth's been home more than usual this year (dang economy), but he's gone now. When he's home, I NEVER have to pick up Presley, he does all the lifting for me. But he left yesterday.
Yesterday after I got home from work and was on my own, I realize just how hard this is getting I'm only 5 '3 " tall, so a shorty. Presley is already past my boobs when she's standing up straight and she weighs a ton it feels like.
So it got me to thinking about what in the world I'm gonna do when she gets taller and heavier. It already hurts my back sometimes, and I use all the proper body mechanics and lifting techniques that you're supposed to use.
What am I going to do? Do you know how HORRIBLE I feel for thinking that I'm going to have to resort to something else in caring for my OWN child? It makes me feel like a failure
While I truly believe she will walk one day, I really do, the question is what I do until that day? I know God won't put any more on me than I can handle, but to ME, it's getting closer and closer to that day.
I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate this happened to her and while I know there's a reason and a purpose, I still HATE IT! I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!
Okay, done wallowing in self pity now. Thanks for letting me vent.
I don't even pick Raven up that much because it is hard on my back and she is only in the 40's. I know if I were in your shoes I would have to get some help. Is there equipment you can get that can help you out?
(Big Hugs). Being a mother can be hard as it is, let alone when your child needs extra. I don't claim to know everything or completely understand how it is for you, but maybe there are some things you are not aware of that could help. I know that when I was teaching we had use of lifts and slide boards and other things that made lifting so much easier. Do you have any of that available or could you talk to her doctor/therapist about getting one? Presley is a beautiful girl and has made so much progress. I don't doubt that she will walk and is blessed to have you for a mom.
I wish I had some advice or wisdom. Just thinking about having to pick a child Bryce's size up, since I know him and Presley are close in age there is just no way I could do it.
You are an amazing, mama and doing an awesome job!
and to answer the question, yes, there are lifts and such that we could get and if she doesn't start walking soon it's something we're going to have to look into, for sure.
You are incredible, Presley is incredible, and I have no doubt she will walk. She's made great strides in such a short time, and I think that has everything to do with your faith, your strength, and just pure determination on both your parts.
Jennifer, I don't know how you do it. You are an amazing, awesome, wonderful mommy. Presley was meant for you, and you for her. I have no doubt about it.
Vent anytime you need to. We are here for you!! And we will be here to celebrate with you the day your miracle girl walks, which I know she will.
I wish I could find a way to make things easier for you. You are such a beautiful person and the MOST AMAZING Mom to your girls. I know when the time comes you will find the tools and resources you need to get the job done.
Philippians 1: 6 For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you (and Presley) will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. So you'd better have your video camera ready so we can all see her walk when the time comes.
((hugs)) just want you to know that I am thinking of you and presley. You are an amazing mom and presley is such a lucky girl to have such a wonderful and caring mother. I am praying for you guys.
This breaks my heart. I just can't imagine being in that position.
You are such a stong woman, Jennifer. Just know that Presley has the mom she should have, and you are doing such an amazing job of being the mom she needs.
i have no idea how i missed this but i want to send you tons of love.
you know i (partially, in a different way) understand some of this. the day after day care & worries that other parents don't have are just so incredibly wearing.
i don't know if it helps but i think of you often and there are many days when you and presley have been my inspiration to keep going - just keep fighting.
try to get a little *you* time soon, get some rest when you can, and know that we all love you.
i have no idea how i missed this but i want to send you tons of love.
you know i (partially, in a different way) understand some of this. the day after day care & worries that other parents don't have are just so incredibly wearing.
i don't know if it helps but i think of you often and there are many days when you and presley have been my inspiration to keep going - just keep fighting.
try to get a little *you* time soon, get some rest when you can, and know that we all love you.
that is so sweet of you to say! underserving but sweet nonetheless
Thanks to EVERYONE for their love and support!!
-- Edited by Juanita on Friday 16th of July 2010 07:47:25 PM
I'm only 5 '3 " tall, so a shorty. Presley is already past my boobs when she's standing up straight and she weighs a ton it feels like.
I am praying for you guys.
